Dear Watchers,
I have some important news to share with you. After much consideration and soul-searching, I will make the difficult decision to permanently deactivate this account on my 11th Anniversary. I would like to address the presence of the DSBM image in the background, as well as the Tanjiro suicide photo from the Demon Slayer Kimetsu No Yaiba: Mugen Train movie.
The DSBM image serves as a metaphor, representing the profound emotional struggles I have faced. It reflects the darkness and intensity of my internal journey. Please understand that the use of this image does not imply that I am currently in a state of severe depression. It is merely a symbolic representation of the complex emotions I have experienced.
Similarly, the Tanjiro suicide photo depicts a dream sequence from the Demon Slayer Kimetsu no Yaiba: Mugen Train movie, where he experiences a moment of suicide. I have chosen this image as a metaphorical representation of my own deactivation, symbolizing the end of this chapter in my online journey. Please know that it is not indicative of my current mental state or any intentions of self-harm or suicide.
I want to take this opportunity to address someone very dear to me. We have become strained, and even the mere mention of her name or her country triggers me and makes me upset. I want to emphasize that despite the difficulties we have faced, I still hold a deep platonic love for her. However, it is important to acknowledge that my periods of psychosis, rooted in trauma, and my relapse in 2022 when I was homeless due to smoking weed have further complicated matters.
I also want to take this opportunity to acknowledge the incredible support I received from a dear friend who has been like a sister to me. Her presence and understanding have been a source of comfort and strength. While I have faced challenging times, including the discovery of my elder sister's existence only to find about about her being taken away to a foster home due to my mother's drug addiction.
To the person I am referring to, if you happen to come across this message, I want you to know that I have come to realize the seriousness of my actions, and I am filled with deep guilt and shame. The pain you have experienced weighs heavily on my heart, and I cannot bear to continue burdening you with my presence. I also wanna let you know that the I empathize with your pain
This deactivation signifies a necessary step for me to reflect, heal, and embark on a journey of personal growth. While I will no longer be active on DeviantArt, you can still reach out to me on other platforms such as Discord, where I will remain accessible.
Consider this deactivation note as a metaphorical suicide note, representing my departure from DeviantArt. It signifies a necessary step for me to reflect, heal, and embark on a journey of personal growth. While I will no longer be active on DeviantArt, you can still reach out to me on other platforms such as Discord, where I will remain accessible.
I want to express my heartfelt gratitude for all you guys' unwavering support and understanding throughout my time on DeviantArt. Your presence and engagement have meant the world to me.
Hey, I’m Really sorry I haven’t been responding, I think chat’s been screwing up my ipad. (and I just had it fixed!)
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